The title captures my week. I was told to get lots of rest in order to be able to have my final chemo treatment which is scheduled for tomorrow (October 19). My body needs to build up white and red blood cells. I’ve napped more, gone to bed earlier and even slept in until 7:30 one morning and yet during the middle of the night I wake and the wondering begins. Wondering thankfully that has not turned in to worrying, but instead some beautiful Bible study times where God has been teaching me about reverence and love. More on that perhaps another time.
Right now, I am wondering how many of you accepted my challenge from last week. Did you seize the opportunity to share your faith this week? “I tried” is not an acceptable answer. Either I shared my faith or I didn’t. I had the opportunity to share with one person the complete gospel. Others, some believers and some not, received a verse of encouragement. There was only time to ask the worker at Panera, “how can I pray for you today?” But, the point of the challenge was not to see how many we could share the gospel with even though I asked you to share with three. The purpose was to get us sharing. Those of you who participated, how did you get through the nervousness as God brought you opportunities to share? Was the Holy Spirit really clear on who you should share with or was there more of a blanket “share with everyone” feeling you had? Will you share again this week?
The definition of wondering via google is two fold; “desire or be curious about something” and “feel admiration or amazement; marvel”. That captures my wondering because it has been both of these definitions at times this week. I marveled at God and the work he is doing through my children. Oh that the Lord would protect them. I am amazed at God’s forgiveness for all the times I have failed him. His forgiveness is complete and it is fully offered. I John 1:9 “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” It is complete cleansing from ALL unrighteousness. God does not clean like I clean. PRAISE HIM!!! God gets into all the little cracks and cleans thoroughly. Even the areas that I think are clean get scrubbed and polished at times. Marvel at his forgiveness. Pray and receive it if needed.
I’ve also wondered a lot this week if the chemo was going to kill all of the cancer or not. I will probably always wonder if cancer is setting up shop in my body. That’s alright as long as the wondering doesn’t seep over to worrying. Either kind of wondering almost always leads to more praying of which we cannot do enough. Spend a little time wondering then seek the Lord in prayer. I don’t think you will be disappointed.
Be Abundantly His and have a great week.