It has taken me weeks to write something worthy of allowing others to read. Even after I wrote this I wondered if I should post it. Finally, I decided I had to get back to it. Chemo is working. I’m choosing to believe God for healing, but Satan is attacking my resolve and my mind. He is the Father of lies and I’m doing my best not to believe any of them.
Mother’s Day 2016 was very similar to Mother’s Day 2014. My children were amazing. I was still felling the lingering effects of chemo. I told myself “I just want one good picture to post on facebook.” Hayden and the kids got my day started off right with beautiful cards both homemade and store bought and great presents. Then off to church they went. I stayed home and had church with Charles Stanley.
When they got home we all headed to my in-laws for the men to grill out and make homemade ice cream for the ladies. I was blessed beyond measure in spite of the nausea and exhaustion. I ate lunch and took my first of two naps in front of “Fixer Upper” on HGTV. The kids played baseball with their cousins.
It was a perfect Mother’s Day except on Monday when I got on FB and saw all of the incredible pictures with the moms and their kids and realized we didn’t take a single picture. I ran my hands through my hair and clumps of it fell out. “Bald to be round three”, I thought. Satan was working in overdrive. Jealousy, envy and then praise the LORD the TRUTH stepped in. Words of blessing, encouragement, forgiveness, mercy and love were wrapped in the leather of my Bible. Romans 8:1-3 “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and of death. For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh, God did by sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.”
Praise Him. I thank God for how he stepped in and changed my attitude. I went back through all of those wonderful, beautiful Mother’s Day pictures and thanked God for my fb friends, their moms and their children. I was overwhelmed with gratitude for the women God has placed in my life who have pointed me towards him. Blessed beyond measure that is what I am.
I finally got that picture I longed for on May 13.
Oh my dear friend. I just want you to know I am praying for you for 100 percent healing and Believing the LORD. My prayers are constant in those areas. I love you. Perseverance can be just so difficult. I will ask for strength in this area too.
Thanks Jen. The Lord is at work. The tumor is shrinking and softening. They are no longer able to feel the lymph nodes and bumps on the left side which are all good indicators. God has already healed me from the thing that I needed most. Forgiveness is a beautiful thing and He is taking away this cancer as well. I want my doctors to see Him in me and I want to be a clear witness of his great love. Give me a call when you get a chance. I’d love to catch up.
Beautiful ….. inside and out!
Thank you Vicki. I so appreciate your encouragement. I hope you are all doing well.