Well it has been fifteen days since surgery and I’m still recuperating. I wear down quickly. The first five days after surgery I rested, the next seven days I needed out of the house and did one thing a day. But these past three days have been filled with doctor appointments, fun activities with the kids and a few loads of laundry. I’m so thankful to all the friends who brought meals so that I didn’t have to spend my energy thinking about what we would eat each day.
My thinking has not be entirely healthy lately. Honestly, what I’ve been doing more likely falls into the category of worry more than thinking. I worry about ever ache and pain. I worry about the hurt my family is experiencing. I worry about friends that I haven’t spoken to in years. You name it and I’ve tried my best to be anxious about it. But today I read something that challenged me in a new way to cast all my cares of Him.
“Move from Fear to FAITH! (Replace Fear with Faith). Change your mindset. Stop focusing on the False, Evidence, Appearing, Real (FEAR)…your thoughts of the unknown. And begin to focus on Forsaking, All, I, Trust, HIM (FAITH)! Now FAITH is the assurance (the confirmation, the title deed) of the things (we) hope for, being the proof of things (we) do not see and the conviction of their reality (faith perceiving as real fact what’s not revealed to the senses)…Hebrews 11:1” From Grace for the Journey by Deborah S. Tulay
Fear is my biggest struggle with cancer. Yet, God’s word says that He did not give me a spirit of fear. Over and over the Lord instructs “do not be afraid”. So I will walk on. I will climb the mountain that lies in front of me. For God goes with me. I will meet with Him along the way and sit at his feet when we reach the top. Seeking Him and I will not give in to Satan and crumble in fear. Instead I will walk in faith and in the healing God has given me. He is faithful and He is good.
Will you join me in saying “Goodbye fear! You have no place here.”? God has work for you and me to do. I will not allow fear to keep me from it. I hope you won’t either.